By a Thread (I Suspend) lyrics

f*ck what you seem to recall
Go back to sleep

Ill intentions call me by my first name
Honesty's deported, everything's unsorted
I can't pretend anything's on course
I fail myself
Looking back I forced this on myself
Remorse is all that I have kept despite the corpses in my mind
I just suspend

Still withering in this ruin

I forgot to mention that I've lost all interest in rebuilding peace
All false idols never know the cost of what you do
You'll always just be full of f*cking sh*t
By a thread, I'm still suspending up
I just wonder, am I moving on?

Still, I'm suspending on the chord I should have cut before with all of my defiling traits I showed to all of the world
Wishing I could curse this off on someone worse
I wonder if I'll end up as the first to perish all for nothing but this
I'm crippled with this sense of regret

Time after time, I just can't f*cking stress enough that the blood in me boiled
I fought it off, following nothing
I felt the cut
Don't you f*cking forget it you c*nt
Gasping for air but it won't fill my f*cking lungs
Still I won't beg for abetment
Failing to learn, failing to express myself
You just watch off in the background