Smile lyrics

[Verse]
How can you love me if I never even loved myself?
I'm prayin' hard, I'm scared as f*ck. Lord, please, just I need help
They say they understand, but they don't get the pain I feel
Sometimes I try to sleep, but tell myself: "this life ain't real"

I put these pills inside my body 'til I levitate
Take so much drugs to when I wake up be at Heaven's gates
So many voices in my head, tell me I'm not okay
So many thoughts inside my head, no I can't be strong (I don't know)

Demons 'round me, [?]
All around me, they the reason I'm shootin'
Vision clouded, what the f*ck am I doin'?
I don't know if I'ma ever get through this

Y'all don't know the sh*t that I've been through
You just know I wanna watch you too
I pray this pain will never hurt you too
If I say "I love you", b*tch, I lied at you

[Chorus]
I'd kill my friends, all, no, I don't need no people
My drug got fentanyl, I hope this sh*t be lethal
I'll never talk no more, she did done been a while
I'm not a sadist, woah. Y'all never see me smile
I'd kill my friends, all, no, I don't need no people
My drug got fentanyl, I hope this sh*t be lethal
I'll never talk no more, she did done been a while
I'm not a sadist, woah. Y'all never see me smile
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