All I did lyrics

Verse 1:
I don't really know all the things we've been through
Kinda got on the meds, there's nothing I can do
How can you tell me to fight and push through?
If you were in my position you would do this sh*t too
You came into my life just to walk away
Can't really stop when I hold the blade
If I ever leave will it cause you pain?
Or will you throw our memories in the lake?
I don't understand half the sh*t I think
Can't even rest, can't even blink
Please tell me this is just a dream
Is this real or this a fakе thing?
It's more scary than it may seem
So don't sit there and call mе crazy
If I told you who I was, I bet you would leave
So don't try to say you were there for me

Chorus:
I always believed every lie, please tell me why
I just don't know how open up, it's not that I'm shy
Wanna get the knife and stab myself so I don't feel no more
You said it'll be ok and I got to fight more
Then you left on me, what was that speech for?

Verse 2:
I'm sleeping, hoping I'll die tonight
If I'm myself will you stay the night?
Said I hurt you, I never meant to
Then you just left, leaving me bruised
Knowing you hurt me too, felt f*cking used
You made me realize that I never truly deserved you
Yes, I know I got people to stay for
But why would I stay for people who won't stay for me?
I'm done with this, don't want no more
This pain won't stop till I rest in peace
Overthinking sh*t bout how you feel
But all this time you weren't real
I'm so sick of feeling broken, all I did was force it
This whole time I was just seeing your back, watching you leave
Figuring this out, it's hard to believe
Believing your lies is all I achieved
But thanks for the pain that you gave to me
Chorus:
I always believed every lie, please tell me why
I just don't know how open up, it's not that I'm shy
Wanna get the knife and stab myself so I don't feel no more
You said it'll be ok and I got to fight more
Then you left on me, what was that speech for?

Outro:
All I did was give and
All my friends are fake and
All they did was break
So no I got no fate