Dead part 1 lyrics

I dont go to sleep becuase i hate my mind
Toxic thoughts and anxiety is all i find
They're trying to break me down
So much blood ill f*cking draw just to keep myself sane
Just to numb the pain
Took a bullet to the heart
Suicidal, ive been down since the very first start
Once tied a slipknot, scream all though my lips are shut
Inside my head i'm running from myself
All this f*cking pain makes me wanna kill myself
Run the blade across my skin
Battle in my head i will never win
Everyday when i see you it makes me regret waking up this morning
Maybe ill kill myself, leave this earth without a warning
Will it hurt you?
Will it kill you?
All these questions going through my head
Along with the thoughts making me wish i was f*cking dead
Who are my friends?
Who are my enemies?
Who will be there before it all ends?
People thinking they know sh*t
But they dont know my heart
Its broken
Im broken