Different lyrics

[Verse 1]
Yo, I'm doomed to a life of 7.25
No point living right won’t make it out alive
Making plays downtown, let me sleep on the drive
Leaning from the f*cking codeine in my sprite
Leaning on the hollows in his f*cking four-five like
Put it to my head and we'll see if I can fly
He don't really care if I’m impaired just stares, says
"What the f*ck is up, bruh you really want to die?"
Yeah, I've been blessed with a death wish
I just hope that I die young and high like Hedwig
I've been too distressed to address this
But I know I can't be the only one who feels helpless
And I'm sorry that I've been so selfish
I'd change if I could, but I just can't help it
But I know who I am, no need to pretend
Guess I’m I’m still f*cked up, and let down again

[Chorus]
'Cause I’ve been feeling down, can't wait until it passes
I kept your picture underneath my mattress
Can't see the sky to find my own position
I know it isn't working, I know that something’s different

I know I'm f*cking different
[Verse 2]
Yo, why the world gotta be like this?
Getting high and she tells me what her stepdad did
I keep the secret so she can pretend
That her innocence hasn't been lost in a sense
So we go to the mall and we buy some bullsh*t
To block out how f*cked up it all is
I just need a whip with the gold plate rims
I just need a pill to feel happiness
I just need a check and some ice I can flex
A few more drugs to feel a little less
A few more hits and a girl that's obsessed
That loves all my sh*t and loves having sex
So I can pretend everything's okay
But the world's so black and I'm so grey
I hope in the end one day I'll say
I see the same old world in a brand new way

[Chorus]
'Cause I've been feeling down can't wait until it passes
I hope you keep me underneath your mattress
Still too blind to see my own condition
I know I can't be perfect I know that something's missing

'Cause I've been feeling down, can't wait until it passes
I kept your picture, underneath my mattress
I can't see the sky, to find my own position
I know it isn't working, I know that something's different
I hope I'm always different, different
I hope I'm always different, different

I hope
I hope
I hope
I hope I'm always different