IDK why I’m like this lyrics

I don't know why I'm like this...

Yeah, I'm so sorry for all the time I spent just burning out in my room
I don't know why I'm like this (I don't know why I'm like this)
I know I let you down and I stress you out, I'm the only one to blame
Just know I'm f*cking trying (Just know I'm f*cking trying)

It was a Friday night, I was all alone
Just wasting time on my f*cking phone
And I checked your page just to see what's up
And what I saw really f*cked me up
It was you and him, yeah it was you right
You played your games and you f*cked my mind
Now I'm burning out, never calm me down
I can never turn my life around

Never turn my life around
I don't know I'm like this
Never turn my life around
I don't know I'm like this

Yeah, I'm so sorry for what I did last night at that party with her
I swear I didn't mean it (I swear I didn't mean it)
And I know you're done with it, sick of all my sh*t
But I promise I can change
Please take me back, I'm dying
(Won't you take me back, I'm dying)
It was a Friday night, I was turning up
Taking shots, taking drugs
Got a time piece by my side
Whispered in my ear that she wants to ride with me
Look up and who do you think I see
Staring back at me, oh, who could it be?
It's my main chick, "How could you do this to me?" she said
I whispered to myself...

I don't know why I'm like this...
I don't know why I'm like this...