​selfish lyrics

[Verse]
I get intrusive thoughts about cuttin' my fingers off
I get confused and build machines to count the numbers
I don't know why, somethin' 'bout some sh*t that happened long ago
It's not important that you understand my struggle
It used to happen all the time, now it happen double
I miss when I could hide it, when the episode was subtle
I stay inside, I'm a burden, I don't wanna scare you
Probably drinkin' Bourbon when I'm fallin' in some parachute
.45 on me I'm prepared and I ain't scared to shoot
Shorty bein' strong but baby I ain't bein' fair to you
Paranoid, keep the blinds closed, sick freak, I'm a side show
Seen death with my eyes closed
Take deep breaths, take deep breaths
I'm sick of this weak stress
Rather be thinkin' like "we next"
I'm pre-conditioned, treat my failure like a reflex
I feel that age on me, I feel that rage in me
I put a lock around my heart and now that cage empty
Don't tempt me, I might just teeter off
Close my eyes and look away and let the heater talk
So distraught, just a stupid bridge to move my feet across
I cross so many, peep the fire back behind me
Never focus what I'm doin cause I'm side-tracked
Feel like I'm actin' in a movie, where's the climax?
Manipulate the script so they never know I'm sick
I'm sinkin' in this ship that I built out of bricks
[Hook]
Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish
There's just different degrees, to this disease, f*ck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish
Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish
There's just different degrees, to this disease, f*ck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish
Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish
There's just different degrees, to this disease, f*ck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish
Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish
There's just different degrees, to this disease, f*ck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish

[Outro: Sample]
There's no hope for Travis
He's suffering
We know we need to do it
There's no hope for Travis
He's suffering
We know we need to do it