Growing Sideways lyrics

[Verse 1]
So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
On some sad-eyed, middle-aged man's overpriced new leather couch
And we argued about Jesus, finally found some middle ground
I said, "I'm cured"

[Verse 2]
And I divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts
Keep the bad sh*t in my liver and the rest around my heart
I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them
But it's a start

[Pre-Chorus]
But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day, I know there are worse ways to stay alive

[Chorus]
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive

[Verse 3]
So I forgot my medication, fell into a manic high
Spent my savings at a Lulu, now I'm sufferin' in style
Why is pain so damn impatient? Ain't like it's got a place to be
Keeps rushin' me
[Pre-Chorus]
But I ignore things and I move sideways
'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day, I know there are worse ways to stay alive

[Chorus]
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive

[Bridge]
And if all my life was wasted
I don't mind, I'll watch it go
Yeah, it's better to die numb than feel it all
Oh, if all my time was wasted
I don't mind, I'll watch it go
Yeah, it's better to die numb than feel it all

[Pre-Chorus]
But I ignore things and I move sideways
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day, Lord knows there are worse ways to stay alive

[Chorus]
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive