Denial lyrics

[Intro]
Yeah, oh-woah-oh
Lil Happy Lil Sad
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Lil Happy Lil Sad
Lil Happy Lil Sad
Yeah (Yeah), yeah, yeah, yeah, oh
Remember that name, b*tch

[Verse 1]
Always been afraid to be the man (Man)
Growin' up, they pushed me down
So I buried my head in the sand (Sand)
It's hard to be believe, they told me I can't (Oh)
Left me with nothing, it's dark in my past
The pain and denial, I don't wanna see (Yeah)
You're wipin' and blow, can't tell her memories (Oh)
f*ck everybody involved in that sh*t (f*ck you)
Now every hour I gotta get lit (Yeah)
But when are you f*cking? I make her my b*tch (Yeah)
Bruised on her knees, 'cause her throat 'round my di*k (di*k)
I love you to death, if that's true, babe, forget
I'm young and I'm stupid, I'm horny and rich (Yeah)
Broken to pieces, don't care if I live (Yeah)
From nothin' to riches, don't care what you think (Think)
I hate that I'm able to tell how it is (Ayy)
I can't be ashamed, I'm too tired of this
[Chorus]
Can't be ashamed when it is how it is
Tortured myself, had to let go of guilt
Be tellin' myself what I learned as a kid
I'm stupid, I'm weak, and do nothin', I'm sh*t
f*ck all the bullsh*t, I try to forget
It's hard when I don't even know what it is
That's sittin' inside me, just waiting to blast
I feel like the dirty, I'm dropped in the past

[Verse 2]
They listenin' when I sing (When I sing)
Cry with me, baby, sing (Sing)
Don't let the sh*t control you, yeah (Oh)
It got nothin' on you, yeah (Woah)
Nah, f*ck the waste bin (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
But carry one if you wanna win (La-la-la-la)
Gotta fight, always movin' forward, yeah
Gettin' high, tryna reach my North star, yeah (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
But I don't wanna talk 'bout that (Right now)
Right now, girl, I just wanna slap that ass (Ass)
Yeah, call a friend, babe, tell her to come over (Baby)
I'll give her cash, she can let you cue onto her
My life is like a fairytale (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I'ma tell her I make up my money and I can't fail, nah (I can't fail)
But I hate when it hurts you, baby
I'll be better by the fall, it's eight plus
[Bridge]
I was told, "Life ain't easy" (Oh)
So I made my life f*cked
Drama was all I believed in (Oh)
I chose to be one with the dark
I don't think I ever seen light (Oh)
Truth is, my memory's black (Oh)
Will deluges 15, your skull
So pressed in the depths of my mind against— (Against)

[Chorus]
Can't be ashamed when it is how it is
Tortured myself, had to let go of guilt
Be tellin' myself what I learned as a kid
I'm stupid, I'm weak, and do nothin', I'm sh*t
f*ck all the bullsh*t, I try to forget
It's hard when I don't even know what it is
That's sittin' inside me, just waiting to blast
I feel like the dirty, I'm dropped in the past
Can't be ashamed when it is how it is
Tortured myself, had to let go of guilt
Be tellin' myself what I learned as a kid
I'm stupid, I'm weak, and do nothin', I'm sh*t
f*ck all the bullsh*t, I try to forget
It's hard when I don't even know what it is
That's sittin' inside me, just waiting to blast
I feel like the dirty, I'm dropped in the past, yeah