​fiveofive lyrics

[Verse]
Hidin' depression in drugs, It's okay, I kinda like that
Pain is f*cking never-ending, maybe I should f*cking end it
I am starting to believe there is something wrong with me
Starved myself till I was weak
Drug abuse and skipping sleep (Late)
Yeah, I'll smother all my problems with my lack of calories
I ignore this love and I ignore my friends and family
I have no more energy, why'd you seem so dead to me?
Pop antidepressants on prescription at my pharmacy
I don't feel my feelings, but I don't want any sympathy
I can't feel no love, no joy or no damn ecstasy, ayy
All I know is anger, fear and guilt, and bad anxiety
Touch my pain, I'll open up my wrist and get my blood to bleed
Bruises and cuts, my words are dust
Suffer alone, suffer at home, smoke on my own, warming my bones
Checking my phone just for your name
But I'm too busy just drinking with Chase
Blood in my place, mask made of lace
Hole growing bigger while I am in danger
Depression, it lingers so just pull the trigger
f*ck

[Pre-Chorus]
5:05 in the middle of the night
I don't wanna f*cking die, but it seems so right
Put the car into drive, put my soul by my side
No one here for the ride, but it seems so right
[Chorus]
5:05, I don't wanna f*cking die
And my head's telling lies
I won't make it through the night
Yuh, rip on my pipe, weed smoke in the sky
When did this marijuana start being a lifeline?
I won't lie, think I'll love you till I die
When we cool at my place with a blunt to the face
While you sit on my waist as you stare into space
While I stare at your face, you will never be replaced
5:05, I don't wanna f*cking die
And my head's telling lies
I won't make it through the night
Yuh, rip on my pipe, weed smoke in the sky
When did this marijuana start being a lifeline?