Hurt lyrics

I'm searching for an excuse
For all the things that I do
My problems coming in twos
Now I got two much to lose

I'm counting all of my funds
I'm throwing ones at the club
They show me nothing but love
She might even let me f*ck

I'm writing all of my wrongs
Just to put them my songs
And then I do them again
Happiness don't last too long

I know they don't understand
I can't tell no one my plans
Can't even tell all my fans
This problems out of my hands

I panic 8 times a days
Don't like the games that I play
Now I can not close my eyes
I'm scared I might fade away

Tired of making mistakes
I fell in love with her face
And now she's breaking my heart
Something that I can't replace