I spent all my time (Trying not to lose control)
All my time
I lost my mind (Trying not to lose my soul)
Trying not to lose my soul, my soul
When you alone the world seem so big, I feel like I'm by myself
Cause I never hear from nobody, until they need my help
I got 8 bills to pay today, and 2 more due on the 12th
Half of 'em ain't even mine, hell I probably just smoke what's left
I tell you what I ain't gon' do, feel sorry for myself
I'mma do it 'til they say I did it to death, fall off, nah dog kidding yourself
I'm at a crossroads where my choices determine my fortune
It's either do business with vultures or unemployment
Went to the doctor for one appointment, she said I was crazy
Well not really, depressed and prescribed all types of medication
I read the side effects, decided I wouldn't ever take 'em
How ironic I wasn't ever patient just overly dedicated
Can't please everyone, can't balance everything right now I don't even wanna try
Swear a n*gga so muf*ckin' tired that I might not sleep when I die
Riding 'round with this heat on my side
Since I was younger I had beef and all my pride
Cause these n*ggas think I'mma let it slide
My homies probably think I won't ride
I just think that I think too much
On top of that I still drink and get high
So f*ck it, it's an eye for an eye, now the blind lead the blind
Now you losing control, losing yo soul, losing time
Got off your grind, you lost yo mind, I spent all of mine trying not to