Misunderstood lyrics

[Intro]
Yeah I'm for real
And that's that soldier sh*t you know what I'm saying
D. Major, baby
You know what I'm saying, Rod Wave
Sometimes, think about that sh*t

[Verse]
Now this one for the pain that I felt over the years
This sh*t ain't been the same ever since a n*gga was lil'
Been too much on my brain make me wanna shed a tear
I be tripping, reminiscing but I'm thankful I'm still here
And I'm so misunderstood this that real soldier sh*t
I never thought I'll see the day where I could go legit
I was just on the stroll with my cuzzo tryna flip
Sell a O in 30 minutes he said 'You need more than this' cause we swangin'
Better have your fire, I got my fire, this sh*t get dangerous
I won't tell no lie before I die I'll go out banging
Just tryna survive but this the life of a gangster
It be hard to believe that I made it this far
Made it when it was raining, boy that sh*t there left me scarred
Often reminiscing about Deja, that sh*t hurt me to my heart
Blood drove my auntie crazy cause she died right in her arms
And I made it to the funeral but wishing that I didn't
I been dreaming about that casket ever since I seen her in it
I ain't tryna see no casket, I ain't tryna see no sentence
My b*tch don't understand me and my family in they feelings
They say I might win a Grammy f*ck a Grammy I need a million
It hurt me that I hurt you can't believe the way I did you
I really thought that we'd be married, move away and have some children
And I can't even explain it, that sh*t be crazy
[Chorus]
And I'm so misunderstood if I could, then I would
But I don't get it, I admit it
Pain that I'm feeling, make me wanna cry sometimes ooh
It make me wanna cry sometimes yeah uh
And I'm so misunderstood, if I could then I would
But I don't get it, I admit it while reminiscing
It make me cry sometimes, ooh oh
Lord knows I cry sometimes

[Outro]
That real soldier sh*t though, you know that-that
That pain sh*t don't go no where like you know what I'm saying
That part be temporary, but it still be hard
But sometimes I be in my feelings about this sh*t
I'm forever a soldier that's soldier life, you know I'm saying
Thug to the bone, you know I'm saying