Battling My Spirit lyrics

[Intro]
Who made this beat?
Feel like n*ggas want me gone, that sh*t crazy
I've even got to look at my family different (Twysted Genius, baby)
sh*t never had to be like this

[Chorus]
I've been battling with myself ('Self), battling with my spirit ('Pirit)
I been talking out loud to God, I just hope he hear it
You ain't never had n*ggas change up on you, so you wouldn't know the feeling (Feeling)
My mama said I need love (Love), but I just need some healing (Healing)
I done lost some loved ones I loved the most, that sh*t made me hate love (I hate it)
I don't even want to be close to my fans, I don't want no hugs (Yeah)
Had to boss up to get my business straight, but I still hang around thugs ('Round goons)
I just want the money (Yeah), I don't want the love

[Verse]
My brother work three jobs and he living check by check (Check)
And that sh*t hurt my heart and I just hope that I'm not next (On God)
I done seen real n*ggas turn fake, I done seen fake n*ggas get praised
I done seen bad b*tches get on, I done seen boss b*tches get laid
I hope my son don't grow up like me, so just be a man (Yeah)
But he only one, so I know he don't understand (He don't)
n*ggas I grew up with gon' try to kill cause who I am (Yeah)
My grandma said she pray for me she just tell me to keep my head, high
n*ggas try to slide (Slide) once or twice (Slide)
All them n*ggas seen want some red dots (Dots)
My little n*gga a stepper (Step)
He been playin Call of Duty too much all he want is some headshots
We drink Wock pints to the head (Wock)
I made a opp b*tch give me head (Head)
f*ck that heart, just want my bread (I just want bread)
I know n*ggas want me dead, so I keep winnin' ahead
I didn't realize what you said
[Chorus]
I've been battling with myself ('Self), battling my spirit ('Pirit)
I been talking out loud to God, I just hope he hear it
You ain't never had n*ggas change up on you, so you wouldn't know the feeling (Feeling)
My mama said I need love, but I just need some healing
I done lost some loved ones I loved the most, that sh*t made me hate love
I don't even want to be close to my fans, I don't want no hugs
Had to boss up to get my business straight, but I still hang around thugs
I just want the money, I don't want the love

[Outro]
Yeah, yeah
I've been battling with myself, battling my spirit
I been talking out loud to God, I just hope he hear it
You ain't never had n*ggas change up on you, so you wouldn't know the feeling
My mama said I need love, but I just need some healing