Belong Here lyrics

[Verse 1: Taran Jaber]
What would it take for my fam
To be proud of me
Everyone doubts me i don't let it bother me
Take all my anger i get up and bottle it
Sick in the head so i need a lobotomy
Depression controls me, I am lost in these pills
Barely got money to pay all my bills
Friends switching up I am just keeping it real
How does that work? how does that feel?
I'm chasing my dream
And they called me a joke
Seeing no light at the end of the road
So I'm finding my peace at the end of a rope
Feeling alone like I walk in the dark
Searching for love, but I'm all torn apart
So I bury my pain very deep in my heart
I don't really know how much more I can take
Push to the limit since soon I'll break
And every smile is a smile that I fake
Say I'm going through hell, but I am doing OK
Say I'm doing OK and I'm doing alright
I love what I do, but isn't a surprise
This music sh*t is not what it seems
My friends told me, Taran
You're wasting your time
I told them I'm chasing my dreams and
If that makes me stupid
I am glad that I'm dumb
Popping these pills got me feeling so numb
So I pressed up my head to the barrel of a gun
See I know what it's like to just feel all alone
And I look to a sky, sending prayers to a god
What's it going to take defy all the odds
You don't know what it's like
What these thoughts in my head
Am I better off alive or am I better off dead?
And the piece that you get
Comes from each of these lines
So I'm taking my piece to a piece of my mind
See I can't really think of the last time I smiled
I guess I just haven't been happy for awhile
They say that when you die your life flash in an instant, but I lost almost nothing an ambulance in the distance my head was spinning round like the tracks on a vinyl the nurse just check my pulse
Now she's checking my vitals, but everything shut down noway left for survival
[Hook: Aundre Myles] x2
Maybe I don't belong here
I feel my end is so near
Been waiting through my own tears
And I wish I'll just so clear

[Verse 2: JayteKz]
Yeah suicide on my f*cking mind
I'm sick and tired and I'm tired trying
I done gave this sh*t all I have now there's nothing left and I feel like dying
f*ck around and load that nine up say "goodbye" You know my times-up
Look into my motherf*cking eyes if this really happens would you be surprised
You don't know sh*t what I have been through
If you judge me well suck a di*k dude
Don't know who to trust or who to vent to
So I pour my heart out through this pencil
Every time my life is over stressful
I just lose myself to instrumentals
In the world of my music if for those who died, then imma prove them wrong
Keep that f*ck sh*t far away from me
Homie where were you through all my suffering you were never there
Nobody ever cared now you come around showing love to me homie f*ck that I don't trust that when the storm came that sh*t struk fast and you did doubt
Who the b*tch now
Keep it real or you can sit the f*ck down
Sit the f*ck down and don't say sh*t
Homie can't you tell I'm all the way p*ssed
I ain't been to sleep in like 5 days
And to tell the truth I just might break
I done tried my best yo for christ sake
This depression f*cked up my mind state
It's like I'm say one thing and do another
My mind is f*cked up without a rubber
[Chorus: JayteKz]
Time is ticking and is ticking fast
Sometimes I wonder how long
Is this bullsh*t gonna last
My heart is broken, but it's
No different than broken glass
I can't repair it cos it's so
Hard to ignore the past
And if I crash, please don't save me
Let me rest in peace for once
And let the lord take me
Let the Lord take me and
If this is a nightmare
Please somebody shake me

[Hook: Aundre Myles] x2
Maybe I don't belong here
I feel my end is so near
Been waiting through my own tears
And I wish I'll just so clear