[Verse 1]
Coming to grips with myself
Gripping the trigger I’m looking for help
Painting this picture, a trophy to put on my shelf
And I told you I’m heading to do something else
Drawing the blinds and unplugging the phone
Looking for things that I felt
Only regret what I’ve known
Selling this sh*t if it sells
My mind is out on parole
And here I am stuck in a cell
He cannot be controlled
Test it and find out yourself
What if I told you that money don’t matter
And love is the true form of wealth?
Would you rebel?
Would you attest to a system that failed?
Or would you just wait
And would you just see
What side gets on top is the right side for me
[Verse 2]
Knock before you enter
My only gold hoot on my sweater
I’ve been better
Every letter I’ve been writing for vendetta
Every set of accolades is a measure
Of all the sh*t I hate, my endeavours
Came from my need to be great and impress her
Said that I would do what it takes when I met her
Didn’t know the stakes or the pressure
But I knew the aches when I let her
Take me to that state, it’s whatever
That sh*t is too far out and I have moved on now
‘Cause I improve on doubt
I put my mood on shout, and f*ck y’all who got clout
I do this sh*t without
Yeah, I do this sh*t without
[Verse 3]
I’m lost as I’ve ever been
Roaming with no settlement
Focused on my betterment but can’t stop tethering
Myself to the past
In my mind, elements clash
Conflict like a veteran
Confidence irrelevant, I’m finding myself hesitant
President of my actions, got the devil above me and I’m asking
What I gotta do to make it past this
Stomach full of absinthe
Throat rasping
Time passing
Money taking preference over passion now
I’m looking out the window and I’m asking how
Asking how
[Outro]
Winter comes and it goes and I’m hoping
I could do this real and be open
Crackin’ the seal of the potion
Pour it and drown in the ocean, floating
Winter comes and it goes and I’m hoping
I could do this real and be open
Crackin’ the seal of the potion
Pour it and drown in the ocean, floating