I don't want to hold on, i don't want to let go. how i got into this mess... i don't know. more f*cked up than i was before. i don't think that i can take anymore. i can't take it. i feel let down, i feel cheated. never thought i'd be the one to be mistreated. wouldn't be surprised if it's all in my head. don't be surprised if i end up dead. i can't take it