​years ago, a while ago. lyrics

[Intro]
Discent
R3DQX Production
Ken, I f*cking hate you

[Chorus]
A while ago, I said I was gone be better
That was years ago, I still ain't no f*cking better
I just learned to hide it in places you won't find it
You just can't get close enough to me to see behind this
Mask that I put on, really think that I'm gone die with it
'Cause I just won't take it off cause I get frightened
When you can see me for what I really am inside
I don't like myself, so loving me, why would you even try?

[Verse]
I know you don't care so you ain't gotta f*cking lie
Tread on me carеful cause I don't care about my life
I'll takе you with me if I choose to end it
You should think twice about f*cking with my feelings
'Cause I ain't got too many left at all
Can't seem to catch my f*cking breath at all
So if you choose to involve yourself at all with me
You should really try to see what I don't want you to see
Girl, I ain't really even that great, and I don't wanna ruin your day
So if you choose to stay, I want you to know that the blame won't be on me
Don't want you to say no stupid sh*t like:
"Should of told me what you were in it for before you f*cking broke me"
'Cause I know that I did, who I want, can't find her
I might be an as*h*le but I'm not a liar
[Chorus]
A while ago, I said I was gone be better
That was years ago, I still ain't no f*cking better
I just learned to hide it in places you won't find it
You just can't get close enough to me to see behind this
Mask that I put on, really think that I'm gone die with it
'Cause I just won't take it off cause I get frightened
When you can see me for what I really am inside
I don't like myself, so loving me, why would you even try?