​sometimes. (2019) lyrics

[Verse]
I'm not an evil person but I've got some evil curses
Why God do I feel worthless? Honestly, I might deserve this
'Cause sometimes I don't[?] play the victim
Broken pages in a book, I ripped them
Arrows shooting at your back, I sent them
All the hurtful things I said, I meant them
Sometimes I wanna go away, sometimes I like the noise
Sometimes I feel the hate, sometimes I feel the joy
Why can't I hold myself down? I guess if I could, I'd be dead by now
I would've allowed myself to drown