​spark! (2019) lyrics

[Verse]
I swear that I'm sick and tired of lies, I'm struggling just to get by
Yeah, I can slide on a hard ass beat
But that don't shed[?] the fact that I just wanna cry
I swear [?], but I do not think, I'd be better off if I died
I tried let all this sh*t out
But it ain't enough words to speak on the sh*t that's inside
I gotta spit on that 808 so people can hear what I say
'Cause when I do sad sh*t, they be like
"Damn you rap really good but I just can't relate,"
What in the f*ck does it take to show me you care?
Don't act like you did when I break
The day that I die don't fall for the liе that people werе there
'Cause I swear that they ain't
What do you get when you mix a life that's hard
And give it some sh*t hand cards
And tell it it's gotta go on to live in a world where all he sees is just dark
[?] with a short ass fuse and all that it needs is sparks
Just stay away, cause the day that I do
I swear imma tear all this bullsh*t apart
I lost my life when you lost yours, and that's not a play on words
I don't wanna change, I like being sad
And I really tried[?] but being happy's absurd
I try to stay home, I don't wanna drive
Sometimes I wanna head straight for the curb
This life is a lie, you say that I'm blessed
But it don't feel like it ain't sh*t but a curse
Wish I could drown in all my tears but I'm numb, unable to cry
I wish I could face on all my fears and kill them, but honestly, why even try?
Why you still calling my phone at 2am? Like b*tch, you not even mine
Telling me all of your problems, I cannot solve them
Don't you know I'm just a guy?