​ashes. lyrics

[Chorus]
I don't understand why I feel the way I feel
Just to not be sad I be taking f*cking pills
Sounding like a bum but the sh*t I say too real
Flowing with emotion you don't know cause I conceal
I do it too well, and honestly it's sad
Coming off as golden when I feel like f*cking trash
Every bridge I had is now nothing but the ash
f*ck I'm holding back too much I'm about to f*cking crash
Sit back I'm about to make you f*cking wish that
You never gave me all the f*cking pain I'm bouta give back
Kick back smokin' on some sh*t that make you trip back
Slip back into the abyss I made with this track
Flick that lighter back up on the blunt, I kiss that
I don't even rap, I just steady f*cking spit facts
Tic tac toe I X you out, you needa get back
Everything in every line just make 'em wanna skip back

[Verse]
Write fast, you try keeping up, then you just write trash
I f*ck up a type beat, you just it make it type bad
Might add, do this on my own I got no right hand
I stopped wishing that I could, now I f*cking know I can
Slow down, you can't catch the flow now
Wrote down, turn it into dope sound
Hope now, I can't f*cking slow down
Broke now, not for long no doubt
[Chorus]
I don't understand why I feel the way I feel
Just to not be sad I be taking f*cking pills
Sounding like a bum but the sh*t I say too real
Flowing with emotion you don't know cause I conceal
I do it too well, and honestly it's sad
Coming off as golden when I feel like f*cking trash
Every bridge I had is now nothing but the ash
f*ck I'm holding back too much I'm about to f*cking crash
Sit back I'm about to make you f*cking wish that
You never gave me all the f*cking pain I'm bouta give back
Kick back smokin' on some sh*t that make you trip back
Slip back into the abyss I made with this track
Flick that lighter back up on the blunt, I kiss that
I don't even rap, I just steady f*cking spit facts
Tic tac toe I X you out, you needa get back
Everything in every line just make 'em wanna skip back