​i think the worst of myself. lyrics

[Intro]
​unknxwn

[Verse]
Every girl that I talk to I always cut off cause I don't feel sh*t
They be like, "I feel you," but I know that they don't feel this
Numbed all my emotions so I can't explain why I feel p*ssed
Even though you don't give a f*ck
I want you to know you're still missed
Wish I could go back and fix everything that I f*cked up
Don't really think that I should
If I could go back and fix everything that I f*cked up
Don't really think that I would
'Cause those are what make all the thoughts
That are so f*cking bad turn into music that's good
Drugs to my body, they put me in a better place
But that sh*ts like termites to wood
No one can understand anything that I am going through
'Cause I just keep it inside
I'm doing what makes me feel happy while I'm on this Earth
It won't mean a thing when I die
Everything that ever made me feel happy
It doesn't mean sh*t when I cry
​unknxwn. a burden, I don't think I should be your friend
I gotta tell you goodbye
"Of every event in our life we can say only for one moment that it is; for ever after, that it was"

Ever since Doug died, sh*t just hasn't been the same
All I feel is f*cking pain, I been stuck up in the rain
You can go the f*ck away, leave me to waste
I don't wanna deal with this, I don't wanna deal with sh*t
Broken to pieces and bits, I just wanna f*ckin' quit
Death is really what I wish
I could care less about what the f*ck you think about me
'Cause I think the worst of myself
I don't have purpose, my life is a waste
I'm just rotting away on the top of the shelf
Don't want advice cause you do not know sh*t
About what I am feelin, I don't need your help
Don't say you relate because I am the only person on this Earth
That knows how my life felt, b*tch