XIX. lyrics

[Verse]
I used to be stuck, I used to live in my mind, burnin' from the pain inside
I used to wish I would die, did not wanna try to keep on being alive
I used to think I was better off dead, kept on believing the lies in my head
Now I’m glad that skin I've shed, you ain't help me, you don’t get cred
Now they wanna ask where I'm at, when I was lost they ain't ask bout that
No love here, my heart's turned black, I was in defense, now I'm all attack
So if you want just let me go, I don't need to need to f*ckin' know
Anything that you think 'bout me, it be too hard to let that sh*t go
19, in a nice scene, on the road to making my life dream
Not just a dream but everything I truly want and truly need
f*ck that workin’ a job that doesn’t do sh*t but fight the cause
That type of sh*t ain't worth the fall, I rather fall tryna get it all
Last year I was found by an angel, glad I didn’t keep 'em a stranger
Glad that I let 'em inside, they helped me channel all of my anger
Help me escape from the danger that I made myself
You were the crack in my shell, made me feel what I never felt

[Outro]
I'm not lost but I been losing my way, lately I been living life sideways
I don’t wanna live unless it's my way, I only can listen to what I say
I used to think I didn't need you but there's no other girl that can be you
You're the only one that isn't see through
Swear I wouldn't mind living life with just me and you