XX! lyrics

[Intro]
Ken, I f*cking hate you

[Chorus]
20 years old, already died, I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?
Don't tell me you love me, if you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me, I wish you would trust me

[Verse]
You ran away, where you are now? I wouldn't know
Why do you play all of these games? Answer the phone
f*ck it I'll shift, I'm not the same, leave me alone
Don't come back when you see my name, imma be gone
20 years old, I've wished I was dead 20 times
Remember I turned 18, almost like took my life
I missed all of my friends, thinking about what I did
Never could come up with nothing, really made me feel like sh*t
19, wanted her to find me, last year, it still ain't behind me
17, I don't even know, I deleted memories, I don't know how to cope
2018 I met this girl, swear she saved me
2019, I didn't know that she'd hate me
Before I let go I wanna make her bitter
Feel like Tracy, toss that b*tch, I littered
I say whatever I want, really I think that I lost my mind
After I made "I lost her" I made her something that I'll never find
Death all in my head, by 25 won't be alive
It'll be a miracle by then I haven't died
f*ck, did it again, cut off a tie, I burned a bridge
I'm slippin' again, I'm on the edge, might lose my sh*t
1, 2, 3, many reasons I'd kill me
How did I get so bad? I don't think you can fix me
I know that I'm a mess, so cold, ice in my chest
Time goes I just feel less, getting close to my last breath
[Chorus]
20 years old, already died, I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?
Don't tell me you love me, if you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me, I wish you would trust me