​nightlight lyrics

[Intro]
I looked everywhere for something that I should of found in myself
I've created my own life's hell, I'm the sinner, I'm the saint
I'm the thought you hate to think, I'm so lost, I'm in a maze
Be better off inside a grave

[Verse 1]
Alpha/Omega, f*ck thinking that sh*t
It don't make it no better when I feel like sh*t
I just feel deader when I'm in the grips
Of a hand I reached out to when I need a lift
'Cause if I need help, then I feel like I failed
I'm in debt to the things that I felt
Well, oh well, I'm stuck here anyway
What's the point of complaining when I know I'm gonna fade?
I thought you would save me from myself
But now you're deaf to my cries for help
Baby, where'd you go? You left me so f*cking alone
Hot inside my chest the night you left, I lost my breath girl
But I guess it's best, I'm still a mess, you were my damn world
Such a shame that you didn't tell the truth to me
I can't feel the same for you if you don't feel the same for me
Make a fool of me, imma make a fool of you
You can really rest in peace when I'm really done with you
What's got into me? I think that's got something to do
With how you just f*cked with me when I never f*cked with you
I should just calm down, I should just let go
But you still come 'round right when I get close
Then I just forget all the pain that you inflict
Then you say, "It's a bad day," and ghost me again
[Bridge]
Cycle repeats like clockwork, I just act like that I'm not hurt
Even right after I got hurt, some of these girls are so nice
But none of them make me feel like her
Wish you were here on these cold nights
I swear all my songs are about her

[Verse 2]
She caught me when I fell, without her I'm not that well
I'm not sure if I can tell when I need to say farewell
'Cause she don't make me fine but without her I would of died
I'm not sure if I will find anything like that, no time
Why'd you have to lie when I asked you bout that guy?
I thought you were not that type, what a waste of f*cking time
Want you out my life, hold up, scratch that, never mind
Can't believe with what you've done my love for you is still alive