Toxin. lyrics

[Intro]
SJ made this one

[Verse: unknxwn.]
Hatred is stated, my mind state, sedated
This life is a Matrix, don't know if I'll make it
I see the truth, now all I see is black
Wish I didn't come here cause I can't go back
I can't love you, too many emotions I lack
Bottled up, I'm an reckless, emotional shack
They won't care till I'm dead and I know that's a fact
Sad, find a beat, write some words, that's a rap
Why do my feelings not f*cking exist?
Except for the few that make me break my fist
Breaking my door that I'm too poor to fix
Being the reason my mother is p*ssed
Not really caring about any school
I'm out all the time looking like a damn fool, I know where I'm wrong
But I'm too f*cking sick to care about all the effects of this sh*t
I'm what I hate, I am my toxin
Keep taking serve that won't help out my coffin
Only will help to put me in a coffin, but wait, I'm too broke
I might as well burn, I'm going to hell anyways what I've learned
God doesn't love me and he never did
I stopped tryna meet when he did what he did
Took away something from me that meant a whole different life
Complete opposite, a whole nother story that wasn't so sh*t
I sound like I'm crying and I can't control it
'Cause all of my music is my true emotion
When I say I wanna be dead, I do
When I set a gun against my head, it was true
But I didn't pull it, I guess I'm a fraud
I'm sorry for all of the pain that I've caused
I'm sorry I'm sad and I'm sorry I'm lost
I'm sorry my words always come with a cost
I'm sorry for being the way that I am
Spending my last couple of dollars on grams
When I wake up it just starts all again, I put myself in this maze that I'm in