​eeyorish. lyrics

[Intro]
"Hey f*ck that monitor, he probably had it coming anyway. Yeah, just get a new one. Is your hand okay?"
Ken, I f*cking hate you

[Verse]
I'm conflicted, I can't make sh*t, I don't feel the love I fake it
Got this feeling I can't shake it, got this feeling I might break sh*t
I'm losing f*cking patience, I'm finna be a patient
I got drugs all this room and I been trying not to take it
But I can't hold on, I been doing that for f*cking so long
I'm so done, I can't open up for f*cking no one
I been trying, it ain't working and I know nobody perfect
I know you don't see the anger but I'm not a peaceful person
All that I wanted to do was be in love with you
But I f*cked up like I always do
And I can't figure it out, I'm bouta start flippin' out
Let me rot all alone in a forest, f*cking up everything, yеah I'm for it
If she call me again, I'll ignore it, got a lot of thе pain where my core is
I got too much sh*t to say that's why I don't do chorus
It's a never ending cycle, I should not be anybody's idol
I make music singing bout the f*cked up sh*t
That I went through and about the sh*t that I did
Back to sounding f*cking angry at the world and at myself
If you can't find me when you die, then you did not get sent to hell
Everything's a f*cking lie and everybody's up for sale
Success is not what you would think if you knew that then you would fail
If that's the case then I'm the most successful person in this place
If that's the case then I'll feel love forever and I never hate
That's the toll that it takes, I believe some backwards sh*t
I'm phony and I'm f*cking fake, I'm more than just a piece of sh*t
So if you talking down on me you better do it right
Tell me I'm the f*cking worst person you met in all ya life
Open up the flood gates of hate and let me drown slow
I'm a sad piece of trash, I'm so down low
Imma f*ck it all up again, I'm going back where I been
But f*ck it is what it is, so I'm not gonna pretend
I know I'm not who I could be now
But I don't know if that's any good right now
Leave me alone, I know I'm a burden, I just wanna go under where the dirt is
I don't wanna know what I did to deserve this, imma give myself a reason for it