​dosvana. lyrics

[Intro]
Ken, I f*cking hate you

[Verse]
Novana, no Nirvana
Blowing up, feel like Osama
I might need to chill, I might trigger someone trauma
I swear that this sh*t is way too easy, feel like Gunna
Imma loner, imma lost cause, imma mess
Wanna hold her, baby can you call me again?
Imma soldier, y'all don't even know that's what I meant
Like a boulder, imma go through anything that's in
My path, on a road of being what I know
I can, learning to let go of all the things I can't
Keep in my control, like a Buddhist, I don't wanna feel like imma lose it
I ain't have sh*t, all I had was music, ain't a tactic, no you cannot do this
Think I'm magic, abra cadabra, I ain't ever lose her, I ain't ever have her
How can you lose what you ain't ever had?
How do you do all of f*cking that?
Making all these different genres, still ain't sounding bad
I don't really even wanna, I feel like it calls me
Put myself into this sh*t so much, I think I lost me
That's why I need it, it let me hold on
When I feel like sh*t, when I do not wanna go on
When I feel like this, no single thought inside my head
I'm in the abyss, I'm not alive, not dead
I've always existed, this is just the body I'm in now
Time's no longer ticking, I'm in bliss, I know there's only now
I don't know why it took me so long to know why me no like people
Most not alive and most rather cry than get off their ass and stop all the lies
I do not like that, I gotta keep on, taking my life back till I can't keep on
With every breath in my body I will, do, be, feel anything that I will