​at least i don’t feel like this everyday anymore. lyrics

[Intro]
Lezter

[Verse]
Hate it when I have these thoughts, don’t fall for me, I hope you’re not
Open up your heart to me, I’ll leave it with an open scar
I don’t have the space to care, depression may be all that’s there
I’m running out of time, I sip some wine to fight off my despair
I’m a f*cking drug abuser, a waste of life, a piece of sh*t
Girls that wanna get to know me, get to know this piece of di*k
I don’t ever wanna let a b*tch make me feel like sh*t again
If I ghost again, will I still have a friend?
Last time I didn’t, this time, I might not make it through
I still feel the f*cking knife that you helped push right f*cking through
I can’t play the victim, I’ve done just about as much as you
But f*ck the way I feel, it’s f*ck life, but you don’t care, so f*ck you too
I don’t think I’ll ever be better, just better drugs to take
Every year, I lose an emotion but that’s just less than fake
If I feel like this any longer I might just meet my fate
Take the f*cking pills that are stronger until I start to shake
I’m sorry mom, for being the way that I am
I’m sorry I can’t graduate, you believe but I just can’t
I can’t take the f*cking stress, I make myself so f*cking sick
It hurts because I know that I’m the reason that my life is sh*t