​sitic! lyrics

[Intro]
Ken, I f*cking hate you

[Verse]
Substance at my bedside, I can't get away from it
I like how it makes my head right but I know can't live like this
I'm a f*cking addict, this connection parasitic
But I just gotta have it, it hurts so good every time I'm with it
"I'll be good when I'm older," say that over and over
If I don't drop this dead ass weight then this wall I won't get over
Then this cave, I won't escape, then this pain won't be replaced
By the things that I know are better than the tears all on my sweater
Do you see mе? Can you save me? God I'm calling but you don't hear mе
Still waiting for you to free me, still craving sh*t I'm not needing
Life's a puzzle and I can't find any peace
I just wither in the rubble, I can hardly even breath
I been stuck inside this bubble of my own f*cked up beliefs
That I don't ever have what I need
That I won't ever amount to the person I wanna be
I don't wanna be strong no more, I just wanna leave
Tried so hard to belong to someone but now I see
That the only one on this piece of f*cking rock that cares
Is the one making all these f*cking songs I share
And that's not me, no it's not Ken, it's the energy that he always held in
When he felt bad every time he got p*ssed
Till it turned into whatever turned to this
[Outro]
Substance at my bedside, like how it makes my head right
I'm a f*cking addict, I just gotta have it