​passion, obsession. lyrics

[Chorus]
Baby, I'm so awful but you should know I care
I don't know where I oughta but I wanna disappear
I'm losing all my hope, I wanna f*cking go
I wanna f*cking smoke, God I feel so f*cking low

[Verse]
If there's really a heaven, right now I won't get in
I think I need a medic, my chest is caving in
What's the point of living right? I won't make it out alive
I know one day it'll come but right now is not the time
I can't slow down now, it'd be wrong to hold back now
I'm not at that goal right now
But I see the f*cking signs on the road right now
Got enough fuel, hit the f*cking throttle
I know what to do when I'm at the bottom
Take a f*cking bull, mix it with bottle
Put me in type of mood I know will get me out of
That mindset where I cannot deal with my stress
In my head, I don't wanna see that text
"I think it's best if we just end this"
All I think about is death, I wanna f*cking end it
But I can't and I won't, say I do but I don't
What to do now? I don't know
I been feeling too down, I might let it go
[Chorus]
Baby, I'm so awful but you should know I care
I don't know where I oughta but I wanna disappear
I'm losing all my hope, I wanna f*cking go
I wanna f*cking smoke, God I feel so f*cking low