Villain lyrics

It's been so hard to...
Love and trust, I....

I looked in the mirror
And what did I see?
Turns out the villain is me

Pessimistically I’m narcissistic
Meaning link is in my bio and you all can click it
I'll only know I’m gifted based on the "likes" that I get
The Dopamine inside my system it don't know the difference
Between the clout and love
I’m never down when you’re swiping up
And when it's dark sing a Facetune, lighten up
I think i'll never get the hang of this sh*t
If I’m suppressing misery through all the braggin' and sh*t
Wait, this is what I wanted, this is what I wanted
Sittin' in the meeting getting judged upon my numbers
Yea, it's ironic all the numbers we be crunchin'
When really very few us is keepin' it 100
Yeah, i remember I was crying to sleep
I hid a girlfriend for six years, I’m finding my peace
I guess I hate the word "dyke" if it's flyin' at me
So I avoided any questions that would rile the sheep
And that was toxic, trippin' on my conscience
Heavily weighted I was taken over with nonsense
Living with these monsters inside me, it was constant
Rather be honest than be admired and accomplished
I'd rather be dead, cast out, rejected instead
Then feedin' into all the demons as they dance in my head
And no ones tells you when your dreams take off
Certain feelings you just can’t shake off