Real Lapse lyrics

[Intro]
No matter how hard you try to run from this sh*t
It's like it's always—, always one step ahead of you, you know?
Every time I try to run—, run, it pulls me back even harder
Sometimes I just feel like I gotta give in just to feel alright again

[Verse 1]
Rap heavyweight, I'm talkin' sumo
But the sh*t done broke my heart, I'm talkin' takotsubo
No pseudo, heard the name, but I'm not the one, I know judo
You don't know if I got a gun, big stepper, big .40 on my hip flexor
My need for revenge is like a sick pleasure
Just on a pill and tryna numb the feeling
So I pop another pill and chop another melon
f*ck a hero, I got zero feelings in my cеrebellum
I live long еnough to see myself become the villain
Feel like 'Ye at the VMAs, this sh*t in my DNA
I got a lot of sh*t that I need to say, so why the f*ck I always hold it in?
Walls closin' in, aw, sh*t, here we go again
I'm feelin' trapped like my origin, let me get a Hennessy or a gin

[Chorus]
Lyin' to myself, avoidin' real facts, I been on this track runnin' real laps
I know you feel that, I know you feel that
Anxiety kickin' in, I can't relax, I been on this track, runnin' real laps
I know you feel that, it hit my system, I know, I feel that
[Verse 2]
I know what these b*tches do, success is really misconstrued
No class, your ass must have graduated from a different school
I get it really, sh*t is cool, I ain't even trippin'
I'm just slippin' through the cracks in the floor of my livin' room
Dancin' to a different tune, drivin' in a different lane
I was 'round for you, but you switched and now this sh*t just changed
Picture this, you couldn't even fit me in the picture frame
I'm sick of this, most your favorite idols is the biggest lames
Twenty years, never sold a ticket for the biggest stage
But I become the biggest villain if I ever get enraged
I used to pray for different days
The IRS came for me like my name was Nicolas Cage
That's the reason why my book is missin' pages
I guess we'll see in the end, although I love it, I'ma leave it again
I don't trust it, I'm like, "f*ck it, dawg, why even pretend?"
Bein' honest, I promise you never see me again, the end

[Chorus]
Lyin' to myself, avoidin' real facts, I been on this track runnin' real laps
I know you feel that, I know you feel that
Anxiety kickin' in, I can't relax, I been on this track, runnin' real laps
I know you feel that, it hit my system, I know, I feel that