Wicked Poetry lyrics

[Verse]
When I be off of the lean it be easy for me to tell you how I feel
It done been too many times I ain't feel like it working, I'm just bein' real
f*cked up conscious, damage off Roxys
I rely on pills, just keepin' it real
Bangin' my steel, if I die Ima go with a kill
Pickin' my partna's fresh off of a drill, you don't think it was a drill
Why God, my mind goin' blank
Is it cause I'm high off drank
Give it all up for Brenda, f*ck this fame
Feel like you don't hear me when I call yo' name
Smokin' [?] cause my feelings drain
93 in my tank propane
I'll never treat my brother like stains
Lost soul when I came in the game
I'on think this sh*t would change me man (no ion think this sh*t would change me)
Look, huh
You f*cked up my head when you did what you did
If I had died would you would have had slid, yeah
You would think a n*gga blood gang, when you see these scars up on my wrist
Baby, these pain cuts
I ain't suicidal but sometimes I feel like I'm they kid, yeah
Hide my pain with blood diamonds
I spent 500 this year and I'm still poppin'
I know my n*ggas gon' kill 'bout me
Or at least I think they won't leave me rottin'
I seen this sh*t get real slimy, real trauma
I spent my last dollar, poppin' bonds for my n*ggas
But that's how that go and they be my f*ckin' shottas
When the whole world turn they back on me, who the f*ck gon' be with me
I just seen a good girl turn bad on me, but that's just my choice of picking
I done seen my granny do crack by me, it's a wicked world that we live in
I done seen my n*gga turn his back on me, when all envisioned of us livin'
But my heart so big and that's just my conscious, still got love for you n*gga
This a message to my lil' brother KayB, just know it's up for you n*gga
Feel sometimes I only got you
I don't know what to do I'm a f*cked up lil dude