IS EVERYONE CRYING OR AM I JUST CLINICAL lyrics

[Chorus]
I have to f*cking lie
To keep you in my life
My math is always right
It's worth it every time
I have to f*cking lie
To keep you in my life
My math is always right
It's worth it every time

[Verse]
Crawling away
Everything's back when I'm falling awake
Nothing feels worthless as calling your name
I'll preach to churches, still nothing will change
I'll stay the same
Pick up a rock
Throw it as hard as you can at the clock
Even if I die, our time wouldn't stop
So lay it all out, count how much we still got
Can't f*cking talk
I'm gonna jump
Don't think I'm able to finish this month
Tell my mother I love her, my brother gave up
That was too much
I'm not strong enough
This is reality, I'm f*cking scared
My parents' lives are a living nightmare
Nobody knows what it's like to be there
Please don't reach out, it induces my fear
All I can do is get comfortable here
[Chorus]
I have to f*cking lie
To keep you in my life
My math is always right
It's worth it every time
I have to f*cking lie
To keep you in my life
My math is always right
It's worth it every time