Honest. lyrics

[ Intro ]
"I love you"
*laughs*
"I don't, I don't believe you"

[ Chorus ]
Am I worth this?
Scratch the surface
Am I honest?
You deserve a...

[ Verse 1 ]
I wanna trust you
But I can't trust myself
So don't tell me that you love me
'Cuz you know I need some help
When you whisper, I hear lies
Got a wall up for my sake
Just in case
Imma fall in love
And I got no escape

'Cause to you 3 words
8 letters, is:
I love you
To me:
It hurts
But I'm jealous when I love you
It's so scary to admit
But I know that I'm not well
I'm not talking about you
It's about my mental health
[ Chorus ]
Am I worth this?
Scratch the surface
Am I honest?
You deserve a...

Am I nervous?
Scratch the surface
If I'm honest
You deserve a...

[ Verse 2 ]
Baby
I'm afraid to fall in love
Because I've given all I could before
It still wasn't enough
She said "I love you"
One too many times
It's hard for me to see
If I say it back
I'm losing all my privileges
So leave

[ Chorus ]
Am I worth this?
Scratch the surface
Am I honest?
You deserve a...
[ Verse 3 ]
A feeling
Not a person with remorse
And I promise if you love me
You won't ever feel I'm yours
'Cuz I'm occupied by things inside
That make it f*ckin' hard
To appreciate your everything
And that just breaks my heart
'Cause

You deserve to be happy
When I can't
And if I take you for myself
Then I deprive you of the chance
It's ironic if you leave me
How I'm gonna end up sad
But if you're with me
And unhappy
That's a pain that I can't have

[ Chorus ]
Am I worth this?
Scratch the surface
Am I honest?
You deserve a...
Am I nervous?
Scratch the surface
If I'm honest
You deserve a...

Am I worth this?
Scratch the surface
Am I honest?
You deserve a...