Everything Outside lyrics

Kinda wished you died
I will admit I lied and
Sentiment is heartache
Infinite as always
We would sit and cry
It was intimate at times
And we're alone we stargaze
We were prone to part ways
Everything outside's
Threatening my life
Definitely questioning
Why the set and setting is so high
Heavenly melodies
That sh*t sounds so deafening at times
Reddening my eyes
Helping me survive
I don't wanna go back
Unless in a toe tag
I told you I'm sober but
You already know that
I struggle to overcome
Everything I hold back from you
Summer nights all felt the same
When we were in my room
How come I just felt a change
New energy from you?
Way different than yesterday
This second wave feels new
I move forward
I'm pressing play
De-escalate my mood
Kinda wished you died
I will admit I lied and
Sentiment is heartache
Infinite as always
We would sit and cry
It was intimate at times
And we're alone we stargaze
We were prone to part ways
Everything outside's
Threatening my life
Definitely questioning
Why the set and setting is so high
Heavenly melodies
That sh*t sounds so deafening at times
Reddening my eyes
Helping me survive
The one time I find beach
Sunlight has no reach
Blood runs black like creek
And my gums subtract my teeth
Said "just once"
Drive back, she speaks
Then spends months high half asleep
Once I have my peace
Sky so bright eyes bleached
Killing myself when we link
Spilling myself at her feet
Xylitol numb my gums
I'll shelter the sun from your eyes
I'll shelter the sun from your eyes
I'll shelter the sun from your eyes
I'll shelter the sun from your eyes