Invitation To A Funeral lyrics

[Verse]
Say my songs are too depressing
How the f*ck you think that I feel?
Drinking won't relieve the pressure
Maybe suicide will
Rolling up a fiver just to hit another line
I know I need to cut it out
But I'm ignoring all the signs, still
I don't mean to scare you
But it's only fair to warn you
Lately I've been hearing voices
Like it's something paranormal
Sorry if my introduction
Wasn't very formal
But I'm too f*cked up to care
I won't remember in the morning

If I forgot, it must not have been that important
Tried to lock away my demons
But they knocking on my door
And I've been boarding up the windows
Still I look over my shoulder
I know it's gonna happen
See it now as I get older
It was easier to write about
The clubs that I was playing
Or the b*tches I was f*cking
Or the drugs that I was taking
Or the crew I used to run with
Or the money I was making
Now the love I set aside
Became the one thing I was chasing
Couldn't find it waiting
I was stuck up in the basement
Every night and day
Until they put me underneath the pavement
At my funeral
I wanted her to come and give a statement
But she didn't show
I guess she wasn't up for the occasion

I know she got the invitation
Connect the dots like it's a constellation
Sentimental things I never got to say
Are more important than the sh*t I got away with

But know my ghost is gonna haunt you
If it's any consolation