Halfway // Happy lyrics

Blank face, emotionless, anxiety renders me useless
And i’m stuck between a rock and a hard place
Six feet deep, feeling guilty over past mistakes
I’m burnt out, the light in my eyes flicker
The anger pent up f*cking grows bigger
And I feel comfort in downing this liquor
Till I feel it slowly tear up my liver
Depression will run its course till i’m dead
Till i’m numb enough to know there’s nothing left
A living corpse untill I wait till the end
Does it ever get better? No I just pretend

In my head no one else can relate
In my head I don’t see the better days
I’m seeing so many others happy
And all I ever wanted was a taste

Happiness never came easy
Longed for that feeling believe me
It’s hard to find i’ve been searching my whole life
I come out empty handed every f*cking time
What’s the point? I’m tired of trying
Misery is much more inviting
No more hiding, these smiles aren’t sticking
Hope is slipping, optimisms f*cking missing
In my head no one else can relate
In my head I don’t see the better days
I’m seeing so many others happy
And all I ever wanted was a taste
The color nothing, i’m deadly dull
Lack of serotonin is the result
Feeling the steady decline
Manic episodes at an all time high