Sometimes i wish i went to college lyrics

Sometimes i wish i went to college
And only ever dreamed bout the sh*t that i started
Getting sick of my apartment
Something’s wrong with my head
But i just don’t know what to call it
Telling myself it’s fine
It’s what you dreamed of
The city of angels where devils meet up
I don’t leave my room
It’s hard to speak up
When everyone around me thinks I’m no one

I wanna dream on
I told i my mom that i would make it
Gotta keep on

I’m super paranoid
I wanna make em all proud
But i keep falling down
I never had a choice
I wanna makе em scream it back to me
And hеar the noise

Testing my patience
Can’t even get out of my bed
I’m f*cking breaking
Don’t know what day it is
I’d give it all to give it up
I’m way too anxious
I’m never breathing right
I gotta drink until i’m spinning
Just to sleep at night
I need him by my side
I get so scared to be alone
That i start shaking i
Wish i went to college
I wish i had a nine to five
I can’t see the finish line
I do this every time