Hold U Up lyrics

[Intro]
Sometimes that sh*t [?]

[Verse 1]
I been around the world, I seen a lot of b*tches come and go
And if you wanna know act like a woman ho
I got no time for your little games
If you don't wanna be with me I know a thousand different b*tches names
I know I always bring the drama
I make you wanna leave me and go back home with your crazy mama
I ain't got nothin' else to tell ya except
I'm a natural born failure always f*ckin' up
I know sometimes I make you cry
I stay out all night and come home high and don't have a alibi
It seems I got no reasons why
I did some suicidal murder ridin' hopin' one day I f*ckin' die
These circ*mstances got me noid
It seems I can't avoid how ya analyze my lies like Sigmund Freud
And so I'm askin' for forgiveness
I don't even know why I did this, you used to be my baby

[Chorus: Zelah Williams]
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up (I ain't even tryin' to hold you up)
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up ([?])
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up (I ain't even tryin' to hold you up)
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up ([?])
[Verse 2]
Ya say I f*cked up with ya, well if I did let me hit ya
One last time, so you can get the the picture
Memories make me feel bad on the rainy days
Doin' dirt, the pain follows me in many ways
It ain't no question how I feel, my sh*t is real
Mental thoughts are ill, murder me at will
I'm goin' crazy 'cause the thoughts of losin' you are fatal
There's no way to express how I'm obsessed
I couldn't stand to see you with another man
My thoughts scream "if I can't have you, no one can"
And I can't blame you for wantin' to leave
'Cause once a n*gga deceive, it's hard for a b*tch to believe in him
I f*cked up and broke the trust
Diggin' on the DL, f*ck your best friend on the hush hush
I guess it's nothin' else to say except I f*cked up
In the silly little games us n*ggas play

[Chorus: Zelah Williams]
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up (I ain't even tryin' to hold you up)
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up ([?])
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up (I ain't even tryin' to hold you up)
I ain't even tryin' to hold you up ([?])

[Outro: Zelah Williams]
I gave you the best that I could give to anyone
I gave you my love but I guess
My love wasn't good enough for you
So I'm leavin' you to learn ([?])
I gotta leave you
So I'm leavin' you to learn ([?])
I gotta leave you