self destruct lyrics

[Intro]
(THE VANISHING ACT)

[Verse 1]
I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
If I don't take the step then I'll just stay the same
Staring at a screen to get through night and day
It's hard to keep my confidence in f*cking place

[Refrain]
I know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
A place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
The sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
Upside down and nothing's where it belongs

[Chorus]
Self destruct or fix me up?
Do I tear the seams or stitch 'em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun
But I could never do that (Do that)
I could never do that (I could never do that)
I could never do that, oh, my God

[Verse 2]
Maybe I'm clueless, ignorant to what the truth is
Can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
Save myself for me and for no one else
Before I decay or melt, or wither away in Hell
Tired of acting like it's fine
Wish I could speak my f*cking mind
When I'm here, my tongue is tied
When I'm there, I'm free to fly
[Bridge]
I need to get away from here
Ignore all my biggest fears
Feel the sounds ring through my ears

[Refrain]
'Cause I know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
A place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
The sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
Upside down and nothing's where it belongs

[Chorus]
Self destruct or fix me up?
Do I tear the seams or stitch 'em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun
But I could never do that (Do that)
I could never do that (I could never do that)
I could never do that, oh, my God

[Outro]
I'm just procra— I'm just pro— procrastinating