it’s confusing to me lyrics

In the quiet
It feels like it's pressing me into my bed
I feel- I feel like I'm being pressed by this weight
I feel like every breath and every word I say can be heard by everyone in this neighborhood because it's just so quiet out
I feel self conscious in the quiet here
I feel confused
I feel
I feel lost
I feel debilitated
The scary thing is the older I get
The more things I experiеnce
And the more еmotions - the range of emotions and the
The way I can understand my brain and my thought patterns and everything just in more detail and in more description
I feel like the more complex and the heavier this emotion comes
It's not just simple sadness, it doesn't feel like sadness to me
It feels like a crushing force that is... it's excruciatingly existential
I'm self-conscious because of how hyper-aware I am of every aspect of myself
It obliterates me and it obliterates my perception of the world and people and how i'm perceived and void of my actions
Since moving here everything has felt meaningless
Any energy I excerpt has felt pointless
I feel like I'm throwing myself into the void
And I don't know what I should expect from anybody
I don't want to put more expectation than allowed on people and then also it's confusing to me
It's confusing to me