[Chorus]
I been feeling so sh*t for all these years
So much blood shed, f*ck, too many tears
Been so scarred, now being happy is my biggest fear
Depression been having me switching gears, off the edge, I'ma steer
[Verse 1]
I just been searching for a source of happiness
Wanna be the goat just like Cassius
And I’m sorry but I gotta be rapping this
I remember years ago, I was my happiest
Don’t mean to be sweating this, I feel f*cking pathetic, but ahead of it, it’s my etiquette, yeah
You acting fake
In love with Gucci but I ain’t round no snake
f*ckin up in my sandals, you getting cancelled, this is way too much to handle, seems like this sh*t is a scandal, telling me it gets better
Don’t ramble, f*ck
[Interlude]
Need to clear my head
[Verse 2]
Cuz I wanna hurt myself until I can’t cry no more
I wanna rip the truth out of you til you can’t f*cking lie no more
I don’t think I’ll ever stop spitting, but you can’t rhyme no more
Man, f*ck all this sh*t, boy don’t wanna be alive no more, uh
Boy don't wanna be alive
I just wanna die
Feeling pain inside
Tears up in my eyes
Don't know why I try
Cuz no matter what happens, you can't stop the madness
And I question why, why, why?
Cuz everybody better than me, they treading, and stepping and wrecking on me, yeah, sh*t
Not thinking for a second on me, I'm begging, and letting em motherf*cking threaten on me, damn, uh
Yeah, aye, ooh, ooh, ooh
[Chorus]
I been feeling so sh*t for all these years
So much blood shed, f*ck, too many tears
Been so scarred, now being happy is my biggest fear
Depression been having me switching gears, off the edge, I'ma steer
I been feeling so sh*t for all these years
So much blood shed, f*ck, too many tears
Been so scarred, now being happy is my biggest fear
Depression been having me switching gears, off the edge, I'ma steer
[Outro]
Gotta write down my feelings, so, umm
I feel worthless, and nervous, and stressed, but depressed
And addicted to pills, yeah, I must be obsessed
Was never good enough, maybe why I'm upset
List of many reasons why I contemplate death