RUINESS lyrics

[Intro]
(And I hate that stupid mouse)

[Verse 1]
Everything is so embarrassing still
Critical interior pressure builds
Caught looking through the crack in the door
So bright, so destructive, I want it
Wish I could've figured it out
Before I grew up enough to dodge the question
Wish I could’ve given it all I had
And crashed and burned or been anything
Better than another name
Fading into radiation
I don't want to be known, I just want to be seen
Let me go, drop me, let me be free

[Chorus]
I'm falling in between everything dear to me
It never ends
Where the f*ck do I belong
And why can I never commit to it?
Is this all there is?
Why can’t I need anything
Without it always being forbidden?
I learned to be afraid of myself
Now I'm always on the edge
Always looking in
[Bridge]
The bleak truth remains
It never goes away

[Verse 2]
Stupid f*cking puppets, haven't you heard?
Whatever you think of me, it's worse
I don't have anywhere to turn and I like it
Just wish I could still trust myself
Nobody can ever return
True contact once it occurs
Avoid the eyes and never try to look back
I've complicated so much sh*t in my cowardice
When all that I wanted was just for someone to see me

[Bridge 2]
But that is not who I am anymore
I can see her behind me
No life in her eyes

[Chorus 2]
I pull myself again to my feet
I cannot ever let go
I'll act my age and f*cking fade away
And give up all control
And never show anything
I wish someone would tell me
All my hidden parts will become known
Threat or comfort, I don't care
As long as I can have the hope
That I’m not alone