​damage lyrics

I want to be a hole in your memory
I want to be a hole in your memory

I keep myself away
From you
I keep myself away
From the thought of you

I want to be a hole in your memory
I want to be a hole in your memory

I didn't cause the kind of damage I'd hoped for
But I still felt somewhere else for days
Trying to bring myself back from nowhere
Or just trying to escape

Did you really not hate yourself?
Your soul's so f*cking strong under all your pain
I broke so early
And I still don't feel okay

I still want to be a hole in your memory
I still want to burn myself out of your haunted eyes
I still want to kill my body
And fall so far I'll never make it back alive
I don't wish things had been better
I wish I'd died
I wish there was nothing
To connect me to that life

I can't convey the hate I have for who I used to be
I wanna wreck her mind
So she won't have the chance to become me
Hold me close and tell me everything's alright