Break my own heart? sounds fun, i’m in lyrics

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For me, love's only good when it's bad
What the f*ck is up with that and how am I ever going to relax?
And I've done all the therapy, I know trauma's my worst enemy
But feelings they don't listen to facts, no

And there's a broken part of me, thinks you're the best I've ever had
But I will break my f*cking heart before it ever takes you back