STILLBORN lyrics

[Verse]
And I just wanna drink it all away
And let the people that surround me drown the f*ck up out the pain
I feel bored with the music and it's f*cked up
'Cause that's the only thing I love except my b*tch now
I used to love it when I played my sh*t back and felt proud
Things changed, now it's picking apart all the f*cking stupid things
And I should give it up, yeah, I should give it up, yeah
And I been texting everyone I know about the sh*t that I been going through and hoping it would help
But I don't even want the f*cking help
I tell 'em "Leave me alone" but I'm the one that's f*cking asking for it
I f*ck around and get this sh*t inside my head
About scenarios of losing everyone I f*cking love
And that's just 'cause I wanna feel something
I don't give a f*ck what it is, I'm sick of feeling anxious and numb
I'm thinking maybe I should leave it all behind
I put a pill up on my tongue and press the barrel to my f*cking temple now
Hang me by a rope, I'm losing all my f*cking hope
It ain't sh*t left that you could f*cking do for me
I been anti-social since the day I was born
I guess that I should love it, that's the way I was born (But I'm eighteen)
But I'm eighteen, I should've been a f*cking stillborn

[Chorus]
I'm writing this to let you know that I don't give a f*ck about my health
sh*t started when we last talked
I never meant a f*cking soul harm
But I do the sh*t I do because I lack the skills to handle sh*t
I'm writing this to let you know that I don't give a f*ck about my health
sh*t started when we last talked
I never meant a f*cking soul harm
But I do the sh*t I do because I lack the skills to handle sh*t, f*ck