I want, i can’t lyrics

I want some things I can't have
I wanna talk over you loudly but I know I can't
I want you to shut up, I want to respond
And tell you that I'm so f*ckin' mad
I wanna hurt your feelings so I hurt a little less
But I can't do that 'cause I know it's something I'll regret
I wanna check all your posts and compare who's hurting the most
But I can't 'cause I know it's unhealthy

I wanna be bold and say your name in this song
But I can't 'cause I know how much drama that would cause
I wanna text you all day so I can plead my case
But I can't 'cause you won't understand

f*ck, I wanna rebound so badly
Show you how other people want me
But I can't 'cause I wouldn't do that
Use someone else at the expense of their emotional
Well, I wanna (be) be immature
I wanna call you a b*tch and a j*rk
But I can't 'cause I know it will hurt
And after everything is said I'll regret it
Once again

I wanna stop being passive-aggressive
I wanna just be mean and emotive
But I can't 'cause I didn't learn how to
Communicate well when I was young
I wanna tell you what my therapist said
I wanna tell you what my best friend thinks
I wanna text you how my mom feels about, all the games
All the games you've been playin' with me

I wanna accept that it's over
I wanna forget the idea of us
But I can't, I can't, I, I can't