Hold Me Down lyrics

[Verse 1: Rustage]
It’ll only take a second but
Seconds turn into minutes and minutes turn into sessions
I’m losing myself to time in a myriad of obsessions
Know the pen can be my solace but fear makes it a weapon
Cus I feel I’m losing presence, I can’t focus on the now
I can’t act like all my brethren, I'm not known to buckle down
Search for answers for my questions and I'm hoping that its found
I had people getting mad at me for floating in the clouds
I've been thinking way too loud
But then I never think it through
Only started on this song cause I got other work to do
Every other task is capturing my attention like it’s breaking news
I be acting panicked but still chilling in the waiting room
I’m sick and tired, always living in this way
I’ve been trying to be gentle but I’m filling it with hate
I don’t feel like I'm a person, just a image of my brain
All my traits I thought were special are just symptoms on display

[Pre-Chorus/Bridge: McGwire]
My mind is racing
I can't stop to slow it down
My fate impatience
I've been racked with sober doubt, hold me down

[Chorus: McGwire]
Same shock, could never get rid of it
Thank god, you're holding me steady
I thought I'm out of my mind
To gather my time and stopping my headache
Yeah, I'm frozen in space
All over the place
I need someone to just
Hold me down
[Verse 2: Rustage]
Cutting off distractions like a hydra they keep coming back
Unhealthy forms of coping, treat my brain like it’s a punching bag
Mind is a controller that came equipped with a rumble pack
I’m surprised that all my patrons don’t want their money back
I’ve always thought that I was lazy
I been handling a rusty car like driving a Mercedes
Cus I'm driven but I'm always backed up, caught up in a daydream
I've been pedalling so hard but I forgotten where the chain be
I be loving running D&D, but hate it when I'm playing
Sick of all the waiting
Want them to listen to what I'm saying
I be so self centred
I’m sick of the celebrating
I ain’t sitting still, I'm moving up and down the station pacing
Or I’m paralyzed
My brain is yelling, body won’t cooperate
Embarrassed by my symptoms
And this sh*t I’m leaving on display
Every thought gon' block the way
I’m useless in the modern day
Feel guilty for my friends and all the sh*t they gotta tolerate

[Chorus: McGwire]
Same shock, could never get rid of it
Thank god, you're holding me steady
I thought I'm out of my mind
To gather my time and stopping my headache
Yeah, I'm frozen in space
All over the place
I need someone to just
Hold me down
[Bridge: Rustage]
My parents told me it’s a blessing
It’s part of the reason I’m good at this
But there’s a big list I’m forgetting
And they're wanting something I couldn’t give
I know there are ways to address it
I’m scared it’ll change who I am
I’m scared it’ll change who I am
I know I want to be happy
But I'm still a coward
So I will just do what I can

[Pre-Chorus: McGwire]
My mind is racing
I can't stop to slow it down
My fate impatience
I've been rocked with sober doubt, hold me down

[Chorus: McGwire & Rustage]
Same shock, could never get rid of it
Thank god, you're holding me steady
I thought I'm out of my mind
To gather my time and stopping my headache
Yeah, I'm frozen in space (I can not slow it down, I can not move)
All over the place (I can not hold it down, I can not choose)
I need someone to just (I can not slow it down, I can not move)
Hold me down (I can not win, but I will not lose)